Sunday, July 24, 2011

Come Back To Me by David Cook


A decent song. I've just heard it for the first time.

You say you gotta go and find yourself
You say that you're becoming someone else
Don't recognize the face in the mirror looking back at you

You say you're leaving as you look away
I know there's really nothing left to say
Just know I'm here whenever you need me I'll wait for you

So I'll let you go, I'll set you free
And when you've seen what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me

Take your time, I won't go anywhere
Picture you with the wind in your hair
I'll keep your things right where you left them
I'll be here for you

Oh and I'll let you go, I'll set your free
And when you've seen what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me

And I hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you, come back to me

I can't get close if you're not there
I can't get inside if there's no soul there
I can't face you, I can't save you
It's something you'll have to do

So I'll let you go, I'll set you free
And when you've seen what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me
Come back to me

So I'll let you go, I'll set you free
And when you've seen what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me

And I hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you, come back to me

You find you, come back to me
When you find you, come back to me
When you find you, come back to me

Friday, July 22, 2011

The Special Two


I've hardly been outside my room in days,
'Cause I don't feel that I deserve the sunshine's rays.
The darkness helped until the whiskey wore away,
And it was then I realised the conscience never fades.
When you're young you have this image of your life,
That you'll be scrupulous and one day even make a wife.
And you make boundaries you'd never dream to cross,
And if you happen to, you wake completely lost.

But I will fight for you, 
Be sure that I will fight, 
Until we're the special two once again.

And we will only need each other, we'll bleed together,
Our hands will not be taught to hold another's,
'cause we're the special two!
And we could only see each other, we'll breathe together,
These arms will not be taught to need another's,
'cause we're the special two.

I remember someone old once said to me,
That "lies will lock you up with truth the only key."
But I was comfortable and warm inside my shell,
And couldn't see this place could soon become my hell.
So is it better to tell and hurt or lie to save their face?
Well I guess the answer is, don't do it in the first place.
I know I'm not deserving of your trust from you right now,
But if by chance you change your mind, you know I will not let you down, 
'Cause we were the special two, and we'll be again.

And we will only need each other, we'll bleed together,
these hands will not be taught to hold another's
'cause we're the special two.
And we could only see each other, we'll breathe together
These arms will not be taught to need another,
'cause we're the special two.

I step outside my mind's eyes for a minute.
And I look over me like a doctor looking for disease,
Or something that could ease the pain.
But nothing cures the hurt you, you bring on by yourself,
Just remembering, just remembering how we were...

when we would only need each otherwe'd bleed together
these hands would not be taught to hold another's,
We were the special two.
And we could only see each other we'd bleed together,
These arms would not be taught to need another's,
'Cause we're the special two.

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

I Still Think About You



Lying all alone in bed
Crazy thoughts running through my head
Thinkin' about you

Tryin' hard to let it go
My head says yes but my heart says no
I wish I never had to choose

I've been walking down the same old road
Tryin' hard to forget you
But I just can't let you go

I still think about you
Do you think about me?
I still think about you

No matter where you go
Just as sure as a cold wind blows
I still think about you
Do you think about me?

Baby, I remember when
You and me were best of friends
We crossed our hearts and swore it lasts forever

But I guess that lovin' me
Was just a temporary thing
And I wish to God that we were still together

I hope you found what you were looking for
It's been 3 years, a lot of tears
Ain't got nothing but this song

I still think about you
Do you think about me?
I still think about you

No matter where you go
Just as sure as a cold wind blows
I still think about you
Do you think about me?

When you're all alone
When you need a friend
I guess it doesn't matter
'Cause what we had we'll never have again

Lyin' all alone in bed
Crazy thoughts running through my head
Thinkin' about you

I still think about you
Do you think about me?
I still think about you

No matter where you go
Just as sure as a cold wind blows
I still think about you

Ohh...

I still think about you
Do you think about me?
I still think about you

Yeah...

No matter where you go
Just as sure as a cold wind blows
I still think about you
Do you think about me...?

Friday, July 15, 2011

Eight Precepts Retreat

Here is a photo from my trip to Nan Tien Temple for the Eight Precepts Retreat. Click on the photo to make it larger.

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Om Mani Padme Hum ओं मणिपद्मे हूं


I'm really looking forward to Taking Refuge and the Five Precepts Ceremony this weekend, when I will officially become Buddhist. It is a huge commitment to undertake but one that I am happily doing.

I have improved my Buddhist studies recently and now visit the temple most weeks, sometimes a few times a week for chanting and education. The above mantra is not actually one that we chant regularly in Mahayana Buddhism, it is more associated with Tibetan Buddhism I believe, but it is one of my favourites.

Friday, July 08, 2011

Back in Sydney

The heater is on full, sitting in front of the TV, just me and a bottle of Jack Daniels (and a few cans of coke) and a little junk food. Sure, I want to lose weight as I still hate being overweight (and I'm still not used to it having been so thin for so long) but it kind of feels right at the moment.

I really have no idea why I continue to write here as I am pretty sure my family don't know I update it anymore (I certainly haven't told them) and I only gave the address out to a handful of people, none of which I am in contact with anymore. Maybe the odd random stranger wanders past, takes a look and thinks "Sad, lonely old man". Maybe there are no random strangers at all and I am in fact talking to myself. Sigh...

Christmas Present Requests

OK, it's early to start making requests, but aside of a Cherry Sunburst Gibson Les Paul guitar (yes, you can buy my love with one of those!), I would like a time machine for Christmas please. Thanks.

Neon Trees - Animal (acoustic version)



Here we go again, I kinda want to be more than friends
So take it easy on me, I'm afraid you're never satisfied
Here we go again, we're sick like animals, we play pretend
You're just a cannibal and I'm afraid I won't get out alive
No, I won't sleep tonight

Oh, oh, I want some more
Oh, oh, what are you waiting for?
Take a bite of my heart tonight

Oh, oh, I want some more
Oh, oh, what are you waiting for?
What are you waiting for?
Say goodbye to my heart tonight

Here we are again, I feel the chemicals kicking in
It's getting heavy and I want to run and hide
I want to run and hide
I do it every time, you're killing me now
And I won't be denied by you, the animal inside of you

Oh, oh, I want some more
Oh, oh, what are you waiting for?
Take a bite of my heart tonight

Oh, oh, I want some more
Oh, oh, what are you waiting for?
What are you waiting for?
Say goodbye to my heart tonight

Hush, hush, the world is quiet
Hush, hush, we both can't fight it
It's us that made this mess
Why can't you understand?

Whoa, I won't sleep tonight
I won't sleep tonight
Here we go again

Oh, oh, I want some more
Oh, oh, what are you waiting for?
Take a bite of my heart tonight

Oh, oh, I want some more
Oh, oh, what are you waiting for?
What are you waiting for?
What are you waiting

Here we go again, oh, oh
Here we go again, oh, oh
Here we go again, oh, oh
Say goodbye to my heart tonight

Oh, oh, I want some more
Oh, oh, what are you waiting for?
What are you waiting for?
Say goodbye to my heart tonight

Wednesday, July 06, 2011

Not as cold as a few weeks ago

Melbourne is surprisingly warm tonight. Well, considering how cold it was a few weeks ago. So I think I may go and watch Rock of Ages again, maybe go to Quan Jude again and maybe another visit to Gordon Ramsey's restaurant again, Maze. I am hoping that there may be a concert on, or something... It's a shame that I don't know anybody down here so it would relieve the boredom. Maybe I should start approaching strangers and ask them to drink coffee with me so that I can pretend they are my friend! Better than imaginary friends. Perhaps.

Tuesday, July 05, 2011

Not quite what I had planned

So it looks like the holiday is going on to the back burner. I now have to head down to Melbourne for the rest of the week with work...sigh.

Oh well, I guess it is a trip away, of sorts, although it's debatable whether it is better to be bored in Sydney, or bored in Melbourne. I like Melbourne. Maybe I will go and watch Rock of Ages again.

Monday, July 04, 2011

Option c) for the holiday

I was just thinking about places in Australia that would be worth a visit, and that I have been to and would like to visit again. Green Island is one option.


As I recall, I went there in December 2009 and it was an amazing place. Unfortunately I was a bit sick at the time and not able to do scuba diving due to an ear infection, but this is definitely a worthy candidate for a 4 day break. The beach is very peaceful and clean and there is a certain tranquility to the place. Sitting on the edge of the water letting the warmth run up over your legs is a memory that will live with me for a very long time.

I think that it helped that the holiday there last time was building towards Green Island as we drove up from Sydney (I can't recall how far, but maybe 3,000km). Plenty of nice places along the way as well, such as Byron Bay (and I nearly got a tattoo there!)



Mission Beach

Airlie Beach (although there was little swimming there as "stingers" were in season)



Another place that was nice, but understated was called Clareview.


A small village that you would miss if you blinked, but had something about it. The sea was a long way out and it took about 10 minutes to reach once you hit the beach! We also caught a crab (but put it back much to the disappointment of my girlfriend who wanted a new pet!) If you ever happen to drive to Cairns, stop there!

I also have not been to Ayres Rock before, but would like to.


A distinct lack of beaches there (although plenty of sand I would guess), but it will be warm!

Anyway, that's it for now.

Who wants a holiday?

I really can not recall needing a holiday as much as I do right now. Who fancies a trip with me (a serious question)?!?

I need either a) somewhere nice and warm where I can sit on a beach and wind down, b) Tibet.